Today's
Gospel and first reading are cases of a “wake-up call.” Both
King David and the unnamed Pharisee needed a huge reality check to
remember who they truly were and that they had sinned before God.
The temptation is there for us all to think that we have our life all
in order, all of our ducks in a row, and are sort of the spiritual
elite above the “low-class” sinners around us.
Pride,
my friends, is the root of all sin, from the first sin of Adam (to be
come like gods) through the angel of light, Lucifer, whose non
serviam!, “I will not serve!”
is a temptation for us all, all they way to the sins of our own
lives, of our world. King David forgets who he was, where he came
from. The Pharisee forgets that any virtue he has is not something
he created from nothing, but that God had fostered in his heart,
probably to a great extent through the help of his parents and
friends (and also his religious practices of reading and meditating
upon God's law).
Let
us turn our pride into the humility of our Lord Jesus, who said Ego
serviam!, “I will serve!,”
even to the point of the Cross and Death. Let us remember Our Lady,
Notre Dame, the only
one free from sin, who never
held it over others and puffed herself up, but humbly served her
cousin Elizabeth in her need. Let us remember that we are dust, that
our holiness is not our own, and that we are just as fragile as David
– capable of slipping into the worst of sins if we are not faithful
to God's will with constancy and perseverance. The spiritual life
leaves no room for standing still, we are either moving forward or
falling backward. We can't fall into David's trap of complacency.
One
trick for growth in holiness is shown in today's Gospel: we need to
be like the woman who comes to Jesus with sorrow. Now there are two
types of sorrow: a destructive sorrow that leads to discouragement,
self-pity, and despair, so that we abandon our regimen of holiness;
and a healthy, life-giving sorrow that leads to honest
self-awareness, a deep-seated gratitude for God's mercy, and a
hopeful vision for the future that inspires us to continue in the
struggle.
As
we acknowledge our sins, we are called to show this second type, this
hopeful sorrow, which can only come from not focusing on ourselves
and our pride, but focusing on Our Lord. The woman didn't care about
what others were thinking, she knew she was loved, and that
relationship with Jesus was the most important thing to her. A
healthy sorrow is centered on a relationship of love.
Love is the source of true sorrow and of holiness.
This
is what Christianity is all about. We won't get far in our spiritual
lives without following David's model of humble confession, without
taking this woman's example of sorrow and love. We need to keep that
sense of sorrow about our past sins, a sort of hatred for what sin is
(a slap in the face of God) and what it does. We must allow that
healthy sorrow to spur us on to love
Christ ever more deeply. The more we love, the more we are forgiven.
Let us ask Jesus today to give us sorrow, a healthy sorrow, a
hopeful sorrow. Let us show him we love
Him.
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